nutesghtveryinasking
forinfortionastotheexactpositionofthesuffragebill,orinexpoundingherohe
situationbutthereoneinhervoice,orashadeinheropinions,oraso
irritaterydatchet,annerbecaincreasinglydireenscious
ofaakekatharinerealizetheiortance
ofthishshediscussedsoolly,as
thoughshe,too,hadsacrificedaryherselfhadsacrificedthesheglovesceased,and
katharine,aftertennutes,begantokevents
prelinarytodepartureatthesightofthis,rywasaallyahingstonightof
anotherverystrongdesire;kathariobeallowedtogo,todisappearintothefree,happyworldofirresponsibleindividualsshestbedetorealizetofeel
“idontquitesee,”shesaid,asifkatharinehadchallengedherexplicitly,“hohingsbeingastheyare,anyoneething”
“nobuthohings”
rypressedherlips,andsledironically;shehadkatharineatherrcy;sheuld,ifsheliked,dischargeuponherheadingproofofthestate
ofthingsignoredbythecasual,theateur,thelookeron,thecynicalobserveroflifeatadistanceandyetshehesitatedasusual,alkh
katharine,shebegantofeelrapidalteationsofopinionabouther,arroionstrikingstrangely
throughtheenvelopeofpersonality,ersusso233
nightandday
nvenientlyfrourfelloanegoist,howaloof
she,notinherinher
voice,inherface,inherattitude,thereweresignsofasoftbroodingspirit,ofasensibilityunbluntedandprofound,playingoverherthoughtsanddeeds,andinvestinghenerents
andphrasesofclactonfellflatagainstsuch
arr
“youllberried,andyoullhaveotherthingstothinkof,”shesaidinnsequently,andhanaccentofndescensionsheakekatharineunderstand
inasend,asshe
atthestofsuchpainnokatharineobehappy;
katharinearyokeepthisknowledge
oftheiersonallifeforherselfthethoughtofheringsrenunciationstunghescience,andshetriedtoexpandonpersonalndition
ustcheck
thisdesiretobeanindividualagain,ere
innflicththoseofotherpeoplesherepentedofherbitteess
katharinenoaking;she
haddraheras
ifinsearetrivialsayingtoendh
theresopicture,orclock,orchestofdrah
ghtbesingledoutfooticesothingpeaceable
andfriendlytoendtheunfortableinterviehegreenshadedlabutintheer,andilluned
booksandpensandblottingpapertheof
theplacestartedanothertrainofthoughtandstruckherasenviablyfree;insuoneuldworkone
uldhavealifeofonesown
“ithinkyoureverylucky,”sheobserved“ienvyyou,livingaloneandhavingyourohings”andengagedinthisexaltedionorengage
ntring,sheaddedinheroind
ryslipspartedslightlysheuldnotnceivein
respectskatharine,erely,uldenvyher
“idontthinkyouvegotanyreasontoenvy,”shesaid
“perhapsonealherpeople,”katharine
observedvaguely
234
virginiawoolf
“youvegoteverythingthatanyonecan”
katharinereinedsilentshegazedintothefirequietly,andhoutatraceofselfnsciousnessthehostilitypletely
disappeared,andsheforgotthatshehadbeenuponthepointofgoing
“length“andyeti
sotisthink”shepaused;shedidnotknowhow
toexpresseant
“iteinthetubetheotherday,”sheresud,
ile;“akesthesepeople
gooneherthantheotheritsnotlove;itsnot
reason;ithinkitstbesoideaperhaps,ry,ouraffectionsaretheshadohereisnt
anysuchthingasaffectioninitself”shespokehalfckingly,askingherquestion,roubled
tofra,notofry,orofanyoneinparticular
buttheedtorydatchetshalloilious,
ldblooded,andcynicalallinoneallheaturalinstincts
“iheoppositehinking,yousee,”shesaid
“yes;iknoharinereplied,lookingather
asifnoething
veryiortant
ryuldnothelpfeelingthesilicityandgood
faiththatlaybehindkatharineswords
“ithinkaffectionistheonlyreality,”shesaid“yes,”saidkatharine,alstsadlysheunderstoodthatrypossibleto
presshertorevealreofthisexaltedndition;sheuldonlyrespectthefactthat,insofeases,lifearrangeditselfthussatisfactorilyandpassonsherosetoherfeetacrdinglybutryexclaid,istakableeaestness,thatshestnotgo;thattheyt
soseldothatsheuch
kathariheeaestnesshh
shespokeitseedtoherthatthereuldbenoindiscretioninntioningralphbyna
seatingherself“fortennutes,”shesaid:“bythetoldheogiveupthebar
andliveintheuntryhashegonehewasbeginningtotellaboutit,errupted”
235
nightandday
“hethinksofit,”saidrybrieflytheloratoncecatoherface
“itharineinher
decidedway
“youthinkso”
“yes,becauseheethinghwhile;he
yfatheralhathesthe
strerkableoftheyoungn”
rybentlohefireandstirredthealbetween
thebarsentionofralph
hadrousedostirresistibledesireto
explaintoherthetruestateofthecasebetweenherselfandralphshekhetoneofhervoice,thatin
speakingofralphshehadnodesiretoproberyssecrets,ortoins
